i was concerned that you left for good. that would be a loss for both of us. i'm not concerned with whether we convince one another of something but that we create new meanings out of the conversation and that we respect one another.
even though i believe devoutly in God, Christ, and humanity's dark side, i don't know for sure of that being truth. it works for me and for many others. but i know that those concepts have resulted in the death of millions throughout the centuries, because we latched onto dogmatic beliefs that were considered TRUTH and resulted in devastation for millions. but that applies to almost all ideas that we latch onto TRUTH, whether religious, political, or even sceintific. i strongly believe that there are truly evil people in the world, but even those persons are sometimes historically rehabilitated by revisionist history. ex--Hitler, Stalin etc. i certainly agree with you "we only think we do but the TRUTH is that we don't. lol"
i haven't seen Matrix in some time but when presented with a red pill or a blue pill, i would choose neither. that too is a choice, but i ask myself, "who made Fishbine god?" are there other choices? and why does one way give enlightenment while the other gives eternal slumber?